The problem is my prolactin levels are so high. Have to get this brain treatment to get the levels regulated. Man i'm so fucking pissed off at this doctor. I am really fucking pissed. Everyday I get more and enraged. But main focus right now is getting treatment. That's all I care about.
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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0
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Sounds like you are making progress, just keep at it, things will improve for you.
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I don't really know, it just sort of faded back in and my inner monologue became more active. I didn't have a completely blank mind ever, but I did have weeks where I did nothing but panic and beat myself up, especially when I was afraid something was wrong with my pituitary gland.
Orgasms are the same again, I think I crashed from the Wellbutrin but it might be temporary.
I had a colonoscopy today because I have ulcerative colitis and I have to do it every year. I don't feel all that different from the last times I had one, I was afraid the anesthesia would fuck me up somehow.
I don't really get angry anymore but my parents are always pissed off at something, it's really annoying. By "my emotions are still back" I meant I can still feel emotions to a degree.
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Anyone on Depakote ?
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Nah, I take Trileptal
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try smoking weed or vaping weed oil cartridges or eating weed edibles, it will lift you out of anhedonia it lifted me out of anhedonia i really want some weed right now like 3.5 grams in a fat blunt to the face
i need to switch from nicotine to weed vapes the fucking breeze pros are hurting my throat and lungs i only take small puffs even then i puff them around 20 times a day im trying to go to 10 puffs a day because i cant function without nicotine unless i maybe replace it with good weedHave you got a treatment plan yet? Any idea what they’re gonna do?
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Erogenous sensation came back again, I'd say it's at 25%. This is the most sensation I had in my clit since invega, not counting the time I got really high during the time I was on Prozac, but forgot to take it one day. I now know I can't fix my PSSD with Wellbutrin since I reacted with a drop in sensation and other symptoms. I hope all I need is time to get over it.
I hate crying in the morning. Looking at my children knowing that i'm not the person that I used to be and that i'm living in this torment. Have two last forms of treatment that hopefully are gonna help me.One is a very large clinic and the other is a group of world renowned doctors. I am so furious to what this doctor did to me. This piece of shit . While i'm suffering they're continuing destroying people. I'm just gonna continue trying to get better that's all I can do. But man i'm pissed off. There's nothing I could do except to get better. I did talk to a psychiatrist last night. That said I can get my pro lactin levels dropped if treated properly. I shouldn't have to go through this.
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I have been high on life sometimes (lots of times). That meant no internet or videogames and no junkfood.
Coke zero doesnt have caffeine.I think the disassociation is finally over for real this time. I almost felt like myself today, I felt more empathy and almost felt happy. I cried less. I did drink a third of a liter of coke zero so maybe the caffeine has something to do with that.
I opened up my art program and set up for a drawing idea I've had for a while, didn't really draw yet though, just colored/textured a background.
PSSD- I've had a tiny amount of erogenous sensation this week again, it feels like my last window except it's on my whole clit, not just one spot.It keeps wavering, however. I impulsively tried a Wellbutrin I still had from a failed trial for new ADHD meds thinking it could somehow give me a boost, and I'm scared that messed me up a little. I have resolved to not experiment and let time and my brain do its thing.
Update: I got really mad over something dumb, totally in character for old me.
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Yes it does
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Mine has been on and off as well , how many days since your last injection ? Your proloactin levels are probably still effected
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Guys , can we all agree this is the toughest thing we’ve all been through. I hope you allow yourself some grace.
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I’m on day 191, 174 days until the one year mark and I am holding on for dear life . Idk why this happened to all of us but I just wanted to send you guys some unconditional love and just know you’re not alone in this battle.
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The truth is , this forum seems to be made up of about 10-15 people at this point and if you don’t your research on Reddit it’s honestly the same sample size of people with seriously long term struggles. I think there is hope for most of us in the long run.