I don't believe it. It's been a year for me and nothing has changed. My hand trevor's arm is bad but my sexual dysfunction is horrible.
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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0
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keepinghope
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Dude everyone is different and he’s 22 months into recovery and doesn’t have Lyme so please give it more time.
Bobskitchen
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Give it another 6 months dude
Can lyme be causing issues too? My brain inflammation has been going away. Nowhere near what it was. I still think stem cell therapy gonna be the best help for me. I still want to go after the doctor that did this to me. But that won't serve any purpose. I have to get better.
I feel like I am starting to heal a little bit everyday.I dont feel like suicide is my only option to stop this.I am praying to God that on top of all the crap I'm going through, I can get stem cell therapy to get me on the mend so I can forget this ever happened to me.Gain my sex drive back, heal my dopamine receptors and endocrine system.Not feel like I'm in some blank twightlight zone. I have seen so many succumb to this drug and share horror stories.Im not meant to go yet...I"m.not meant to go yet. I know I sound delusional but I gotta believe there is hope.There has to be.
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Always hope! You can do it because I could!
bowandsparrow
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I've told you this before, and linked sources. You likely have problems compounded by both Lyme disease and invega. You're best off asking your doctors to examine both.
I'm already way past you. They verified that the damage was done by the invega. But I also realize that the damage from the Lyme disease is exacerbating issues. I'm getting treated for Lyme right now. Then I treat the invega
How did they verified that the damage was done by Invega? They always tell me that there is nothing visible. They said I had psychosis because I blamed Invega. They wanted to double Olanzapine so my psychosis to Invega will fade. This are the kind of psychiatrists I have to deal with.
I was smart enough and did two different m r i's. One in march and one in october. Both of them showed damage to my pineal and hypothalamus glands. I also did a scan with contrast. These psychiatrists you're dealing with sounds like the scumbags that I was dealing with.
Eryximachus
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It is not possible for an MRI scan to do what you claim here.
InvegaAnon
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I just wish the hospital staff was more attentive to me. My psychosis wasn't even that bad, but they put me in a hall with single beds that could be locked down, and yet they had a woman who couldn't sit still run around rambling about how she could talk to aliens.
I just needed someone to talk me out of stuff. I wouldn't have taken the shots. I kept requesting someone to talk to and it took days to get a fucking social worker.
I'm scared they thought I was a pedophile because of my then undiagnosed OCD and that's why no one cared for me. My notes made it sound like I was one, but I just said I have intrusive thoughts about that, among violence and doing disgusting things, like eating garbage from the sink. I had become afraid Nazis were going to frame me as one and kill me because I'm queer and I told that scammer about my intrusive thoughts about doing sexual harm, but I'm completely asexual outside of long term relationships. I'm demisexual.
You think psychiatrists would know the difference between intrusive thoughts, schizophrenic shit, and actual ideation to violence. I thought I would be understood as having OCD, but I feel like I made a mistake. I think you're a joke of a psychiatrist if you still think OCD is about fastidiousness and physical compulsions. I'm obsessed with doing harm or believing something is wrong with me as a person.
I wasn't hallucinating anything. I was delusional, paranoid and manic. They saw my psychosis as severe and didn't even want me in group therapy.
I don't even have that many intrusive thoughts anymore and they don't mean anything to me anymore. I wouldn't feel that way if this was true and a pedophile can't turn off their pedophilia. I wasn't even having those thoughts currently, Straterra helped my OCD and I just got off of it and I thought I was clear about it to the nurse I talked to. I was afraid I was going to be framed for pedophilia and killed for it. Of course I'm not that important enough to assassinate in that way.
I'm scared I'll be misunderstood for posting this if s fucking psychiatrist didn't look at me and go "Yeah, that's OCD." I feel like nobody tried to talk to me or care for me because they thought I was a sick and twisted person instead of someone who at one point was afraid of themself, and the fear turned outward because of how they are currently being treated by society.
Some people think asexuality is a cover for sexual perversion. In reality I'm not even kinky, I'm the most vanilla person I know, just queer. I think people saying "daddy/mommy" in a sexual context is weird.
I'm panromantic, and that's "sinful". I'm agender, I'm trans and I love other trans people. People like me are seen as predators right now and that's being used to justify violence and oppression against us. So it's really hard to have/had intrusive thoughts about being what many in the Republican party think I am. (Like I said before, it mostly went away and it manifests in being afraid to hold my niece a certain way or afraid I looked at a minor weird.)
The idea that the psychiatrically trained people didn't understand haunts me. Was I neglected because of it?
Also, to assure you this is an actual thing I had to deal with, pedophile-OCD is actually very common, just as common as other forms of harm-OCD. People never talk about it for obvious reasons.
www.madeofmillions.com
I'm probably going to take down this post. If psychiatrists couldn't tell the difference between me and a pedophile, would any of you understand? But anyway, I think this is why I was neglected in the mental hospital. It's sick that I didn't have a therapist during this ordeal. Every fucking mental ward needs a staff of therapists.
Maybe it was a neglectful place in general. I dunno. I looked at my hospital notes about me and it's so clear they didn't have the full picture of what happened to me. The psychiatrist didn't even think the scammer was real.
I just needed someone to talk me out of stuff. I wouldn't have taken the shots. I kept requesting someone to talk to and it took days to get a fucking social worker.
I'm scared they thought I was a pedophile because of my then undiagnosed OCD and that's why no one cared for me. My notes made it sound like I was one, but I just said I have intrusive thoughts about that, among violence and doing disgusting things, like eating garbage from the sink. I had become afraid Nazis were going to frame me as one and kill me because I'm queer and I told that scammer about my intrusive thoughts about doing sexual harm, but I'm completely asexual outside of long term relationships. I'm demisexual.
You think psychiatrists would know the difference between intrusive thoughts, schizophrenic shit, and actual ideation to violence. I thought I would be understood as having OCD, but I feel like I made a mistake. I think you're a joke of a psychiatrist if you still think OCD is about fastidiousness and physical compulsions. I'm obsessed with doing harm or believing something is wrong with me as a person.
I wasn't hallucinating anything. I was delusional, paranoid and manic. They saw my psychosis as severe and didn't even want me in group therapy.
I don't even have that many intrusive thoughts anymore and they don't mean anything to me anymore. I wouldn't feel that way if this was true and a pedophile can't turn off their pedophilia. I wasn't even having those thoughts currently, Straterra helped my OCD and I just got off of it and I thought I was clear about it to the nurse I talked to. I was afraid I was going to be framed for pedophilia and killed for it. Of course I'm not that important enough to assassinate in that way.
I'm scared I'll be misunderstood for posting this if s fucking psychiatrist didn't look at me and go "Yeah, that's OCD." I feel like nobody tried to talk to me or care for me because they thought I was a sick and twisted person instead of someone who at one point was afraid of themself, and the fear turned outward because of how they are currently being treated by society.
Some people think asexuality is a cover for sexual perversion. In reality I'm not even kinky, I'm the most vanilla person I know, just queer. I think people saying "daddy/mommy" in a sexual context is weird.
I'm panromantic, and that's "sinful". I'm agender, I'm trans and I love other trans people. People like me are seen as predators right now and that's being used to justify violence and oppression against us. So it's really hard to have/had intrusive thoughts about being what many in the Republican party think I am. (Like I said before, it mostly went away and it manifests in being afraid to hold my niece a certain way or afraid I looked at a minor weird.)
The idea that the psychiatrically trained people didn't understand haunts me. Was I neglected because of it?
Also, to assure you this is an actual thing I had to deal with, pedophile-OCD is actually very common, just as common as other forms of harm-OCD. People never talk about it for obvious reasons.
Pedophilia OCD | Made of Millions Foundation
Pedophilia OCD, or POCD, is a subset of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder in which a person experiences unwanted intrusive thoughts about harming children.
www.madeofmillions.com
I'm probably going to take down this post. If psychiatrists couldn't tell the difference between me and a pedophile, would any of you understand? But anyway, I think this is why I was neglected in the mental hospital. It's sick that I didn't have a therapist during this ordeal. Every fucking mental ward needs a staff of therapists.
Maybe it was a neglectful place in general. I dunno. I looked at my hospital notes about me and it's so clear they didn't have the full picture of what happened to me. The psychiatrist didn't even think the scammer was real.
Eatforgains
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I made this for you guys today. It’s Abilify based but I hope it helps.
https://youtu.be/tpnl7cgi2IY?si=PFJ2AWzfOMm_aYie
https://youtu.be/tpnl7cgi2IY?si=PFJ2AWzfOMm_aYie
Eryximachus
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I have no idea what that word means, but sex in the modern world is getting increasingly bizarre.
InvegaAnon
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It just means I'm not sexually attracted to people unless I established a close relationship with them. It was confusing for me because I thought I was just asexual.
Eatforgains
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I hope this was worth making. I hope someone gets something out of it.
Dre87
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I've been working my second week at work at the grocery store stocking shelves. A couple of the managers say that I'm working too slow and they already started to cut my hours. The general manager says that he's willing to help me out if I push hard at work. I do all of this while still doing drugs too, I think I got it now though how to work faster.
Otherwise I would ask for a set schedule so that I could get another part-time job. I might get one anyways maybe even as a bouncer at a club. I'm a tall and big dude with some muscle on me, and I've had over 4 years of those injections but right now I'm finally feeling like I'm tougher and stronger enough to do something like that, and you would probably end up getting hot chicks too.
Otherwise I would ask for a set schedule so that I could get another part-time job. I might get one anyways maybe even as a bouncer at a club. I'm a tall and big dude with some muscle on me, and I've had over 4 years of those injections but right now I'm finally feeling like I'm tougher and stronger enough to do something like that, and you would probably end up getting hot chicks too.