siruspoolzx
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Nov 20, 2023
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So after about 2 months and 15,000 I am at a loss. Crack has been the worst time of my life. I have reached out to an ex, and family. I feel like they can't support me how I need.
What's made me question everything has not been the money, nor the addiction. It's Been now that every time I use it I get psychosis.
I got involved with the wrong crowd and don't want this to affect my life regarding that.
I guess a little bit of the addiction. Can go five days without it, but seem to cave every time.
I have an amazing paying job, they offer resources. Also an amazing medical system, they aswell can help.
My issues.
I have a real medical issue and got off of oxy, but don't want that to ever be taken away *permanently*.
I have worked as a nurse in our medical system, and drug users unfortuantly do get labeled for life. They also get cut off of any supports (hard medication) due to previous addiction.
My work is now completely different, and they offer short term, also 8 week program at a center. I just don't know if I'm strong enough to go through with it. As it's 24 hours monitoring and random drug tests after completing it.
I was thinking of going through the counselling/ psychiatric therapy.
Still get on short term, but not being labeled for life. Aswell as getting rhe support to get through this.
I have had an opiod addiction, gambling, cocaine regarding lines, and finally now the worst and my hardest one smoking cocaine.
My family has now been involved in one of my states, my ex (narcissist). It just feels like I let too much out. Need a solution or what you would feel I should do.
What's made me question everything has not been the money, nor the addiction. It's Been now that every time I use it I get psychosis.
I got involved with the wrong crowd and don't want this to affect my life regarding that.
I guess a little bit of the addiction. Can go five days without it, but seem to cave every time.
I have an amazing paying job, they offer resources. Also an amazing medical system, they aswell can help.
My issues.
I have a real medical issue and got off of oxy, but don't want that to ever be taken away *permanently*.
I have worked as a nurse in our medical system, and drug users unfortuantly do get labeled for life. They also get cut off of any supports (hard medication) due to previous addiction.
My work is now completely different, and they offer short term, also 8 week program at a center. I just don't know if I'm strong enough to go through with it. As it's 24 hours monitoring and random drug tests after completing it.
I was thinking of going through the counselling/ psychiatric therapy.
Still get on short term, but not being labeled for life. Aswell as getting rhe support to get through this.
I have had an opiod addiction, gambling, cocaine regarding lines, and finally now the worst and my hardest one smoking cocaine.
My family has now been involved in one of my states, my ex (narcissist). It just feels like I let too much out. Need a solution or what you would feel I should do.