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    Hi all,

    I am new here and looking for advice. I want to get sober from several things Alcohol, Meth, Cocaine, and Porn are the main ones. Not sure how to approach this. I tried 12 step programs and religious programs even been implementing lifestyle changes and still having issues. I know if I drink I will end up using Meth or Cocaine I do not seek them without alcohol in my system. The adult entertainment is a whole different issue. I tell myself I am going to quit drinking and even write it down and let others know I am trying to achieve and maintain sobriety to help with accountability. I have a lot of triggers as I imagine most people new to sobriety do. I find myself ordering and buying alcohol out of instinct it isn't even a conciseness thought at this point and I don't know how to actively keep sobriety goals in my head. Most of my friends and family are either dealers or enablers that even though I tell them about my goals they will buy liquor and bring it around they all know if I drink I will do the harder drugs as well. I accept that I have the option to say no and not drink the liquor but I lack the willpower at this point. I used alcohol to deal with a very rough patch in my life and developed a dependence because of it. I am not in a financial situation where I can relocate to get away from the friends and family and I am not sure how to cut ties with them all or if it is necessary nor can I afford rehab. At this point I do not know what to do. Can anyone offer advice or tips? I don't know where to turn to get help at this point and I am betting someone here has been where I am at now with their sobriety
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    Prob look into Antabuse. Take it every day if you're serious about not drinking
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    Hi acarpenter89,

    I just wanted to welcome you and say I think it's really great that you even recognize you have a problem and are reaching out for help and advice.

    This is a great place to get support and has helped me a lot.

    I myself am 7 days into a CT WD to my opiate pain medication. (I am a chronic pain patient) And while this past week has been hell as far as physical WD's are concerned, I have never felt better emotionally/psychologically since quitting.. If I can do it so can you.

    Things will get so much better for you, this will be just a blip on the radar. Come here as much as you can when you need support or have questions. We are all here to help you.

    Here for you anytime,

    Your friend,
    Ashley.
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    I appreciate the tips I had been clean for about a month then I went to a local rock concert on friday and started drinking then being drunk not only did I end up doing meth i way over-amped when i went to my friends house. I havent slept since thursday night this morning is day 4 of being awake and i've barely been able to eat anything but have drank plenty of Gatorade and water and some green tea with fresh lemon juice. I am hallucinating both visually and auditory. I am having muscle spasms and that horrible metallic smell from the odor is coming through my pores and i cant seem to wash it off as well what i imagine is dried blood in my nose that i cant seem to get out. Worst of all I am really depressed that I keep relapsing and I think I may have to cut ties with a friend due to them not only being my enabler but also my dealer. Cutting ties with them would also help cut back on my alcohol. I tried explaining to this friend multiple times that i don't want to keep doing this yet they bring it out every time i am around. Other than the enabling and triggering they have in all areas been a really good friend so I was hoping not to have to cut ties if possible but i do not believe i can maintain sobriety and be around them. I am not blaming them for my relapse and I fully accept my actions and choices got me to relapse but being around them did not help. The other is issue is i have trouble staying focused on my sobriety I haven't learned how to be on guard all the time yet
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    Hey acarpeneter89,

    Try not to be too hard on yourself, we all have slip ups. What's important is that you keep going okay? Like you said you realize you need to keep your distance form your friends that are using.

    You can come here when you need support we are all here for you, you can do it, it's NEVER too late!!!!!

    Have a great day, hope you feel better soon,
    here for you anytime,
    your friend,
    Ashley.



    Quote Originally Posted by acarpenter89 View Post
    I appreciate the tips I had been clean for about a month then I went to a local rock concert on friday and started drinking then being drunk not only did I end up doing meth i way over-amped when i went to my friends house. I havent slept since thursday night this morning is day 4 of being awake and i've barely been able to eat anything but have drank plenty of Gatorade and water and some green tea with fresh lemon juice. I am hallucinating both visually and auditory. I am having muscle spasms and that horrible metallic smell from the odor is coming through my pores and i cant seem to wash it off as well what i imagine is dried blood in my nose that i cant seem to get out. Worst of all I am really depressed that I keep relapsing and I think I may have to cut ties with a friend due to them not only being my enabler but also my dealer. Cutting ties with them would also help cut back on my alcohol. I tried explaining to this friend multiple times that i don't want to keep doing this yet they bring it out every time i am around. Other than the enabling and triggering they have in all areas been a really good friend so I was hoping not to have to cut ties if possible but i do not believe i can maintain sobriety and be around them. I am not blaming them for my relapse and I fully accept my actions and choices got me to relapse but being around them did not help. The other is issue is i have trouble staying focused on my sobriety I haven't learned how to be on guard all the time yet
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    I was clean for 2 weeks off H and off suboxone then the worst happened. I lost both my parents. They were both in their 70's and they both died from Sepsis and MRSA. This was a week ago, then I relapsed and i feel like shit for doing it. Now i want to quit again but i dont have any suboxone or insurance. I feel like everytime i open a door it leads to a brick wall. If i could just get my hands on 2 subs. Anyway, i just felt like venting. I know there are people here who will say they are worse off than me and i shouldnt complain but i was just so close. If anybody has any ideas please let me know.
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    Hi Dan and welcome.
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    Terribly sorry for the loss of your parents, my biggest condolences to you.

    Please be easy on yourself, your slip is just that, a slip. Nothing more nothing less. Please don't be hard on yourself, we have all made mistakes. You will bounce back, you see this won't help and want to put it behind you. And you will. And we are all here for you.

    I hope you get some Subs to help but you can also come here and we will all be behind you.

    Here for you anytime,
    your friend,
    Ashley.

    Quote Originally Posted by Dan2573 View Post
    I was clean for 2 weeks off H and off suboxone then the worst happened. I lost both my parents. They were both in their 70's and they both died from Sepsis and MRSA. This was a week ago, then I relapsed and i feel like shit for doing it. Now i want to quit again but i dont have any suboxone or insurance. I feel like everytime i open a door it leads to a brick wall. If i could just get my hands on 2 subs. Anyway, i just felt like venting. I know there are people here who will say they are worse off than me and i shouldnt complain but i was just so close. If anybody has any ideas please let me know.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Dan2573 View Post
    I was clean for 2 weeks off H and off suboxone then the worst happened. I lost both my parents. They were both in their 70's and they both died from Sepsis and MRSA. This was a week ago, then I relapsed and i feel like shit for doing it. Now i want to quit again but i dont have any suboxone or insurance. I feel like everytime i open a door it leads to a brick wall. If i could just get my hands on 2 subs. Anyway, i just felt like venting. I know there are people here who will say they are worse off than me and i shouldnt complain but i was just so close. If anybody has any ideas please let me know.
    You can do this Dan. Sit down and watch Netflix for a couple days and I bet you'll feel better. I know you know it is sooooo much easier to quit after a week than after a month
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    That's what I've been doing CfZrx, great advice.

    Ash.

    Quote Originally Posted by CfZrx View Post
    You can do this Dan. Sit down and watch Netflix for a couple days and I bet you'll feel better. I know you know it is sooooo much easier to quit after a week than after a month
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