cyberius
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Mar 11, 2013
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When I don't use meth my mind gets to be scattered. More and more days go by and this stress and inability to organize my thoughts, pay attention, and express myself builds and builds. I end up getting so restless and claustraphobic it justifies using more to me. I can't even rationalize to myself getting clean because it gets to be just me fighting myself to pay attention or cope with useless anxiety.
Why would I get clean when life is all around less managable when I'm sober? How do I get a better quality of thought and focus when I'm sober? I imagine I'm coping with a messed up pleasure center, it almost completely removes my ability to enjoy anything
Why would I get clean when life is all around less managable when I'm sober? How do I get a better quality of thought and focus when I'm sober? I imagine I'm coping with a messed up pleasure center, it almost completely removes my ability to enjoy anything