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Recovery The 2024 Recovery Thread

Yes it is, too bad there is the sound of lawn movers, from so many of my neighbors yards.
 
thatmf said:
I absolutely hate the sound of lawnmowers and blowers lol. It doesn't bug me too much nowadays but at 7 am it's a rude wake up call lol
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I have the opposite problem, the noise keeps me from falling asleep. I ran out of melatonin and Valium is weak compared to Ativan. My schedule( I don't really have one) is a mess. I go sleep a hour or so after the sun comes up, when I sleep.
 
tokayeahok said:
anyone else got tons of cicadas coming out?
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What's a cicadas ? I mean I know. Years ago up until about six years ago they would rattle my brains out day after days.

Now ? I can barely remember what they were or is !!! :oops:

Wow this is peculiar hmms.
 
How much kratom should I take for withdrawal from heroin? 2 days ago I took 4mg suboxone, 37 hours ago I smoked 0.05g heroin(poor quality), 17 hours ago I smoked again 0.03 heroin and 2 hours ago I smoked 0.02g. It doesn't contain fentanyl or any strong stuff l. It is like 30% purity.
In the morning I was planning of taking 0.3g of 20x kratom concentrate and after 1 hour if needed 25mg of diazepam.

Any tips to help me get clean? Maybe some tips on how to use the kratom? I have both extract and normal. I have access to methadone, suboxone, s bit of heroin, weed, ibuprofen and paracetamol.

I was thinking to take the diazepam and kratom in the morning, continue reposing at some intervals and possibly smoke again super little heroin before bed time.

All help is appreciated
 
Omg. I am doing so horrible. I don't know where everybody is. Maybe they are out coping. I hope everybody ended up safe.

My headache was weird too. I guess I got another cluster. Depression came back really bad too. I think it is from being really tired

and weak. And Cranky. Haaha. Stay away. I still remember that I had way a lot of so much help. Thanks everybody. Haha good company

and time spent. Nice. You all are great. Just don't feel as miserable as me. lol

Take Care you Big Great group !!! Awwe. Flowers. 🌻☀️✨
 
kiely said:
Omg. I am doing so horrible. I don't know where everybody is. Maybe they are out coping. I hope everybody ended up safe.

My headache was weird too. I guess I got another cluster. Depression came back really bad too. I think it is from being really tired

and weak. And Cranky. Haaha. Stay away. I still remember that I had way a lot of so much help. Thanks everybody. Haha good company

and time spent. Nice. You all are great. Just don't feel as miserable as me. lol

Take Care you Big Great group !!! Awwe. Flowers. 🌻☀️✨
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Big hugs mamacita 🌺
*I been around but going through some thangs, you know what I’m sayin. Hope everyone’s doing alright as I’m writing this
 
kiely said:
Omg. I am doing so horrible. I don't know where everybody is. Maybe they are out coping. I hope everybody ended up safe.

My headache was weird too. I guess I got another cluster. Depression came back really bad too. I think it is from being really tired

and weak. And Cranky. Haaha. Stay away. I still remember that I had way a lot of so much help. Thanks everybody. Haha good company

and time spent. Nice. You all are great. Just don't feel as miserable as me. lol

Take Care you Big Great group !!! Awwe. Flowers. 🌻☀️✨
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If you are getting real cluster headaches you need to have a GP; recommend a neurologist to see about medication for these head aches. Also an MRI and CT scan.
 
So I'm in recovery again.

Tried to be clever and use kratom to come off pain pills and lope

I did do a rapid taper with thw lope and the kratom wd isn't too bad. Yesterday I was a mess but slept for about 6 hours last night

Woke up with a bit of a spring in my step and felt actually good for a change but that only lasted an hour then I was yawning sneezing and throwing up. I think it's calmed down now though.

I'm on that downward curve now so surely it only gets better from here.

No comfort meds sucks
 
Last week I started doing physical exercise, did 3 workouts after not doing anything for 1.5 years when I was drinking heavy & abusing Blow. Well, then came this last weekend, somehow I ended up going to a sauna/pool party, which of course ended up with plenty of Blow & Weed and little sleep. Although, I managed to get plenty of sleep after the weekend and yesterday did a workout, today I'm feeling like garbage, i.e. not being able to focus on work, no energy, rage fits on and off.

Then I started to think why such a low feeling. Turns out during the weekend I forgot to take my Fluvoxamine (an A/D) and since I'm out of cash for anything, going through an A/D withdrawal (popped a Fluvox pill today), Weed WD & Blow WD. No wonder I feel like I do. This is the time when I urgently need to step up my work performance and finally start to solve my problems, yet I want to just escape reality .. sleep and put my head into sand, like it would solve anything..

I hate how my life has become because of too much Blow, being barely able to afford anything and having so many debts and problems; I so foolishly thought that alcohol was the biggest culprit, but.. I haven't had a drink in 2 months, but I still haven't improved anything else during this time besides starting to do workouts (which I love); I guess it's at least something to hold by, a small hope.

The day after tomorrow is my salary, will finally be able to afford some food, some cigarettes, some gasoline for my bike.. at least something. I've never been so broke and now I realize how stupidly I wasted so much money on Blow, on parties and other bullshit which apart from a couple of hours of fun, always makes me even more depressed in the long run.

I now realize I need to spend quality time with myself, just workout, just learn to ride my bike as I love, eat normal food, not processed junk; read some books/web; I've realized that by doing things I love my mental state is improving too.

The only problem now is to be able to skip these weekend parties where everyone is doing Blow/Smoking & drinking.

Sorry for the long rant everybody, I really needed to vent..
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
Big hugs mamacita 🌺
*I been around but going through some thangs, you know what I’m sayin. Hope everyone’s doing alright as I’m writing this
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You are always so composed !

And even if you aren't always you need to stick around and give us lessons. ;);):cool:

THANK YOU for that ! That was above and beyond your call of duty.

That was so nice.

 
Second day sober... Trying to keep going while the city where I live is collapsing due to the rains. Desperate because Tuesday and today I had to stop my writing to get things together at home and doing errands to find resources (we don't have water). Monday was the intervention day and my cats appointment, so couldn't work.
Tomorrow I MUST focus,, but my mental health is not working due to the climate disaster where I live. Don't know how to relax my mind a little.
 
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