hmmm...,
having a couple of strange and unnecessary deaths in my family over the years opened my mind to spirituality. Learning about why one may die and learning about life and all it’s energies I directly relate to that. But with my own life, being emotionally destroyed after the woman of my life left me after 4 years had been something that I just could not cope with. I thought that I was not good enough for anyone else, and everyone was better then me.. I changed my car 3 times and I’m only 20.. bought a $21,000 (au) to try and fill a void. Though after taking drugs I one day woke up and look at myself completely different. I realized that I don’t need to change my car all the time to feel good.. I don’t need a woman in my life just to complete me, I’m happy with who I am and the people I’m around.
It was really an amazing feeling to come to this.. I guess in a way it was a spiritual awakening in a personal level. And now, after having a very bad year I’m the happiest I have ever been. The cool thing is tho, I know I can still be happy without the drugs. It’s just something that I do at raves to heighten the experience.
One other thing I found, I used to be a big drinker. One night I was walking to a Taxi and got the shit kicked out of me buy 3 guys for no reason.. I know that this is not going to happen to me at a rave.. Everyone becomes one and are all friends. That’s something that you can’t get with grog. I think in everyone’s individual way they become more open-minded and tolerant to people that are different. You know, if you not a good dancer no one is going to come up to you and tell you to sit down for it. Hardly any negativity. I have not spoken to one person (especially bluelighters) who has not treated me on the same level. Basically, everyone is open-minded.
All you need is your friends, your family and yourself. Anything extra is a bonus and should be looked at that way
Keep on living the good life!!
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~~~who gots the lighter!?~~~
[This message has been edited by acell (edited 10 October 2001).]
having a couple of strange and unnecessary deaths in my family over the years opened my mind to spirituality. Learning about why one may die and learning about life and all it’s energies I directly relate to that. But with my own life, being emotionally destroyed after the woman of my life left me after 4 years had been something that I just could not cope with. I thought that I was not good enough for anyone else, and everyone was better then me.. I changed my car 3 times and I’m only 20.. bought a $21,000 (au) to try and fill a void. Though after taking drugs I one day woke up and look at myself completely different. I realized that I don’t need to change my car all the time to feel good.. I don’t need a woman in my life just to complete me, I’m happy with who I am and the people I’m around.
It was really an amazing feeling to come to this.. I guess in a way it was a spiritual awakening in a personal level. And now, after having a very bad year I’m the happiest I have ever been. The cool thing is tho, I know I can still be happy without the drugs. It’s just something that I do at raves to heighten the experience.
One other thing I found, I used to be a big drinker. One night I was walking to a Taxi and got the shit kicked out of me buy 3 guys for no reason.. I know that this is not going to happen to me at a rave.. Everyone becomes one and are all friends. That’s something that you can’t get with grog. I think in everyone’s individual way they become more open-minded and tolerant to people that are different. You know, if you not a good dancer no one is going to come up to you and tell you to sit down for it. Hardly any negativity. I have not spoken to one person (especially bluelighters) who has not treated me on the same level. Basically, everyone is open-minded.
All you need is your friends, your family and yourself. Anything extra is a bonus and should be looked at that way
Keep on living the good life!!
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~~~who gots the lighter!?~~~
[This message has been edited by acell (edited 10 October 2001).]
