I haven't been on this website in years. I first discovered this place around the cusp of my 20s, and I just turned 30 last year. When I was 21 I decided to try dabbling in kratom and painkillers like hydrocodone. Here I am nearly a decade later and I haven't been able to find my way out of this addiction. I regret a lot of things in my life, but letting my curiosity get the best of me with opiates has been my biggest regret. I do have somewhat of a grasp on it. I never moved on to heroin or fentanyl, but I've been hooked on 30mg oxys for as long as I can remember. And it is an endlessly expensive habit to maintain. I probably do 2 pills every other day on average, and it leaves me unable to afford much else besides my absolute essential needs like housing, food, and transportation. I like to imagine I'll get my shit together in these next couple years, but for now I'm still stuck on these things.
Anyways... my morning routine today was 2 30mg oxys, a cup of coffee, and a bong rip with some kief mixed in for good measure.