I was delaying this post because I wanted to wait a couple more months to be 100% sure, but no, it’s finally time to put this to bed.
**I recovered completely in the space of 4 weeks using paroxetine 10mg (USA brand name Paxil)**
Last year February if I recall correctly a user on here called
@district9 advised me to try paxil. I kept putting it off and bad advice on this forum was partly to blame. “SSRIs are bad, nonono don’t use those, just exercise and take vitamins!”.
Nothing worked. To this day I have a cupboard full of vitamin pills, nootropics, magnesium in almost all forms, collected over 1.5 years and other silly shit that never worked.
The Process
Anyway, let me just give a quick log of what happened. I called my GP explaining my persisting symptoms over the course of the last 1.5 years, and he recommends therapy, CBT in particular. I tell him I’ve got that in the pipeline but I’d like to finally give psychotropic medication a try.
I ask specifically for Paroxetine. 2 reasons: District9’s recommendation & this one in particular is very effective for anxiety conditions. He gave me a prescription of 20 mg pills for a week and told me to report back to him for a longer prescription.
I broke the 20mg pills in half and took 10mg daily for 2 weeks.
By day 3 my anxiety had completely (& I mean completely) subsided. No this was not a placebo effect if any stupid fucker even tries to remotely suggest that.
By end of week 1 I was feeling more energetic, light on my feet, happy.
End of week 2 - catch up with doctor: I report the positive results and puts me on a 2 week prescription of 20mg. I once again break them in half to 10mg and carry on for another 4 weeks.
I tried 20mg but I preferred 10mg personally. I explain this and more at the bottom of the post.
It’s been over 6 weeks now and I’ve never felt better. The medication has truly given me my life back. I would express more emotion here if I could but I can only vaguely remember how bad I was suffering before.
Make your best judgement and at least give it a try. If it doesn’t work try a different SSRI. I think the right one could resolve this issue.
My humble opinion on what I think the LTC is
I say humble because I’m not here to push a viewpoint on something that I think works and completely disregard and insult the opinions of those that it hasn’t worked for, like some idiots on this forum do. Im just speculating, as we all are.
My best guess, based on the 20+ visits to a psych I’ve done and the countless research and symptom analysis over the course of 1.5 years, is that something about the serotonin transport system is malfunctioning. It is most certainly not a mere psychological problem in which eating your greens and thinking positively will solve.
I do not want to plaster this post with articles and reasoning that may induce anxiety in readers so I’ll keep it was short as that. The why isn’t important to us, only recovery is (because we are not medical professionals who can ascertain a solution by knowing precisely what’s wrong anyway).
I can make a separate post later if I even bother coming back here again.
Tips for using Paroxetine
Dosing: find the right dose for you. I’d say start on 10mg and titrate to higher doses if you and your doctor feel you need to.
Side effects: of all the SSRIs, this one is by far the most sedating. Take it at night, not in the morning. You don’t want to start dozing off at work.
Stopping the med: there’s a chance if you suddenly stop using it you’ll get some unpleasant symptoms, so taper it off slowly if you want to quit, don’t go cold turkey.
Final comments
Try it, don’t try it, tell me my advice is good, bad, I couldn’t give less of a shit. It’s worked for me and I’ve done my due diligence by making a post informing you all.
God speed.
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Needless to say that this was the dumbest decision of my life. I had done molly occasionally 10 times or so spread out over many years as it wasn't really my thing. 
