Hey guys, new here and really want some opinions on my story. Two years ago I tried Adderall, to use for college. However, the first time I used the drug I decided to save them(I bought in bulk) as college is not worth wasting them on (I planned on taking a very hard professional exam instead).
Anyway a year later after making a career choice change(into an area I wanted to excel at but was not my strong point at all), I was prescribed Adderall. I researched a lot and though the evidence was clearly against it I had decided to give Methamphetamine a shot. It was a night and day difference compared to Adderall and the first time I took it I planned on studying but instead wrote myself an essay on how I envisioned my life to be down the road. It was a beautiful day, I understood from the beginning that any euphoric effects from these drugs would fade and to be honest I’d argue I never really experienced them other than in regard to fully devoting myself to my goals and aspirations. I tried higher doses of oral meth but the loss in cognition and ability not to mention the anxiety (I also have tried cocaine 4 times prior and 4 times in a row had massive panic attacks off small little lines so bad that I know I will NEVER do that again.)
I began to meditate, and read books. I also gave up all of my toxic friends, toxic habits (social media, diet soda, bad sleep habits to name a few). I have not, not taken a stimulant once in over a year now but over the past few months however the course of my life has changed entirely for the better. I take 20-25 mg of Oral meth twice daily spaced 6 hours a part and have recently scored above the 99th percentile on an extremely hard standardized exam for Graduate school and based off my GPA and score it is likely I will be attending a top 5 university for my program next year.
I don’t want to say meth did it all for me because it certainly didn’t I always had a strong work ethic, but my attention span was horrific. Adderall made me far more jittery than meth which is why I switched. Not one person over the past year has ever questioned that I was high on it. Which is quite crazy to me considering the stigma behind it. However I’ve allowed my friends to sample with the drug orally and I just saw them get high or stimmed up where as I always felt calmer and at peace.
Thoughts? Thanks
Anyway a year later after making a career choice change(into an area I wanted to excel at but was not my strong point at all), I was prescribed Adderall. I researched a lot and though the evidence was clearly against it I had decided to give Methamphetamine a shot. It was a night and day difference compared to Adderall and the first time I took it I planned on studying but instead wrote myself an essay on how I envisioned my life to be down the road. It was a beautiful day, I understood from the beginning that any euphoric effects from these drugs would fade and to be honest I’d argue I never really experienced them other than in regard to fully devoting myself to my goals and aspirations. I tried higher doses of oral meth but the loss in cognition and ability not to mention the anxiety (I also have tried cocaine 4 times prior and 4 times in a row had massive panic attacks off small little lines so bad that I know I will NEVER do that again.)
I began to meditate, and read books. I also gave up all of my toxic friends, toxic habits (social media, diet soda, bad sleep habits to name a few). I have not, not taken a stimulant once in over a year now but over the past few months however the course of my life has changed entirely for the better. I take 20-25 mg of Oral meth twice daily spaced 6 hours a part and have recently scored above the 99th percentile on an extremely hard standardized exam for Graduate school and based off my GPA and score it is likely I will be attending a top 5 university for my program next year.
I don’t want to say meth did it all for me because it certainly didn’t I always had a strong work ethic, but my attention span was horrific. Adderall made me far more jittery than meth which is why I switched. Not one person over the past year has ever questioned that I was high on it. Which is quite crazy to me considering the stigma behind it. However I’ve allowed my friends to sample with the drug orally and I just saw them get high or stimmed up where as I always felt calmer and at peace.
Thoughts? Thanks