Oh boy where to start about the fucking insanity that befell me.
To begin, small prolegomena and TL;DR: This is a female perspective. It will be relevant afterwards. It's been a month and a week of my giga binge. I've done copious amounts of research which I will be sharing here to some degree. I will make a final post once I've fully recovered, with all the SCIENCE that seems to be lacking in the recovery parts of the forum so much.
My question to the forum: Has anyone had these muscle twitches from too much molly and can tell me their experiences?
The night: Drunk, took 3 pills and my adderall medication. I don't remember everything that happened.
The first week:
- Muscle twitches / spasms / myoclonus at rest or while falling asleep.
- Tingles.
- Hypnic jerks sometimes.
- Dizziness.
- Covid-like symptoms, electric shocks / shivers.
- Anxiety. Liquid fear. Couldn't even move out of bed.
- Lots of thoughts of suicide and doom.
- OCD
- Brain fog
- My period gets triggered 2 weeks prematurely
The second week:
- Insomnia started. Waking up during the night, every 2-3 hours, struggling to fall asleep.
- Unable to nap - constant hypnic jerks if I tried.
- Panic attacks on top of the anxiety attacks now.
- Lots of thoughts of suicide and doom.
- Shivers, dizziness and brain fog went away for the most part.
- UNBEREABLE FUCKING TINGLE IN MY SPINE.
- My period gets triggered AGAIN!
Now:
- Muscle spasms and twitches at rest.
- Some insomnia.
- Everything else is gone. Thanks to SCIENCE!! 10 billion percent!!! (Only weebs will get it)
How I fixed most of my issues, other than giving it time?
First, it took me realising that my body was producing too much cortisol. There were a plethora of indicators for this: the first, that my body was triggering my period for no reason week after week. Cortisol is the precursor to progesterone, a hormone that participates in regulating the menstrual cycle; the second, that my insomnia consisted in difficulty staying asleep / waking up constantly - and cortisol is the hormone that is in charge of waking us up, and has a very important nocturnal cycle. I woke up most often during REM sleep, when serotonin, histamine and dopamine receptors turn off. Serotonin receptors also manage the stress response, creating thus an infinite cycle of dysregulated cortisol release. This is most often referred to in this forum as HPA axis dysregulation (... which is what it is).
I started taking magnesium* (common deficiency + stress hormones consume it), and relaxants throughout the day.
I ate RIGHT before bed so that it would act as "slow release" agent of the supplements that took before sleep. And also eat sugary foods which elevates insulin which is the ''counter'' to cortisol. This included (but now I have weaned off of) 0.15mg Xanax, 100mg L-theanine (which I already took throughout the day) 400mg of baccoppa monnieri and camomille tea. Running every morning right after I wake up. Waking up with sunlight. 2+- hour of flexibility but mostly same time every day. Fuck the no screens thing I want some anime and that's okay.
The baccoppa monnieri is more of a nootropic that I'm taking to stimulate neural connection regrowth (look up the studies yadda yadda rats yadda yadda). On top of cardio and healthy food.
To begin, small prolegomena and TL;DR: This is a female perspective. It will be relevant afterwards. It's been a month and a week of my giga binge. I've done copious amounts of research which I will be sharing here to some degree. I will make a final post once I've fully recovered, with all the SCIENCE that seems to be lacking in the recovery parts of the forum so much.
My question to the forum: Has anyone had these muscle twitches from too much molly and can tell me their experiences?
The night: Drunk, took 3 pills and my adderall medication. I don't remember everything that happened.
The first week:
- Muscle twitches / spasms / myoclonus at rest or while falling asleep.
- Tingles.
- Hypnic jerks sometimes.
- Dizziness.
- Covid-like symptoms, electric shocks / shivers.
- Anxiety. Liquid fear. Couldn't even move out of bed.
- Lots of thoughts of suicide and doom.
- OCD
- Brain fog
- My period gets triggered 2 weeks prematurely
The second week:
- Insomnia started. Waking up during the night, every 2-3 hours, struggling to fall asleep.
- Unable to nap - constant hypnic jerks if I tried.
- Panic attacks on top of the anxiety attacks now.
- Lots of thoughts of suicide and doom.
- Shivers, dizziness and brain fog went away for the most part.
- UNBEREABLE FUCKING TINGLE IN MY SPINE.
- My period gets triggered AGAIN!
Now:
- Muscle spasms and twitches at rest.
- Some insomnia.
- Everything else is gone. Thanks to SCIENCE!! 10 billion percent!!! (Only weebs will get it)
How I fixed most of my issues, other than giving it time?
First, it took me realising that my body was producing too much cortisol. There were a plethora of indicators for this: the first, that my body was triggering my period for no reason week after week. Cortisol is the precursor to progesterone, a hormone that participates in regulating the menstrual cycle; the second, that my insomnia consisted in difficulty staying asleep / waking up constantly - and cortisol is the hormone that is in charge of waking us up, and has a very important nocturnal cycle. I woke up most often during REM sleep, when serotonin, histamine and dopamine receptors turn off. Serotonin receptors also manage the stress response, creating thus an infinite cycle of dysregulated cortisol release. This is most often referred to in this forum as HPA axis dysregulation (... which is what it is).
I started taking magnesium* (common deficiency + stress hormones consume it), and relaxants throughout the day.
I ate RIGHT before bed so that it would act as "slow release" agent of the supplements that took before sleep. And also eat sugary foods which elevates insulin which is the ''counter'' to cortisol. This included (but now I have weaned off of) 0.15mg Xanax, 100mg L-theanine (which I already took throughout the day) 400mg of baccoppa monnieri and camomille tea. Running every morning right after I wake up. Waking up with sunlight. 2+- hour of flexibility but mostly same time every day. Fuck the no screens thing I want some anime and that's okay.
The baccoppa monnieri is more of a nootropic that I'm taking to stimulate neural connection regrowth (look up the studies yadda yadda rats yadda yadda). On top of cardio and healthy food.
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