Hello, i was first atracted to this being very early, 16 years of age..at the time i saw it as an intangible experience. I have played and argued with several psychedelics since i was 15 and created an amazing relationship with these substances, specially tryptamines for obvious reasons
For years i dream about trying Amanita Muscaria, and did it twice at 21 and later 24 years of age, nothing happened....you can imagine my disapointement! I came up with many explanations but the truth was crappy source inactive substance.
I am now 28! hehehe and for the past 2 years i have been more and more curious about this mushroom last year i was in ecstasy, i had found amanitas in the woods! but i did not properly take care of them ( unexpected situation led to rotten mushrooms) again i felt now like amanita spirit did not want to be my friend, but very persistent i am so this year i went at it again and this time, everything was almost too perfect and i now have an amazing stock of dry amanitas.
I made a tea with one table spoon of powder and had an amazing and very insightful experience but for the first time in my life, i felt like something else had taken over of my mind! Honestly i have tried and played with almost everything! Amanitas did not give me any kind of nausea or sickness, just the drunk feeling at first this transformed into MDMA feeling and so overwhelming that i went to my room and fell asleep, i felt i was being forced to sleep. Now, i did sleep because my girlfriend later told me that she went to check up on me and i was open mouth snoring but i was still totally awake, so i never really realized i was asleep, i just kept going and was having this conversation with other people, different people but these people were very far away and this required me to shout, my girlfriend heard me and came to see, i don´t know why, i "woke up" when she entered the room but i was anaware that i had been sleeping so the strangest thing happened that i just kept going and scared my girlfriend and friend because anything that came out of my mouth was in the dream context and so "nonsense" to them. I felt very clear minded the whole time, amazing energy and truly felt like a higher being was trying to show and tell me something but my language was unable to express it. I gradually returned to a more introspective mind state and fell asleep in the couch, next day was feeling amazing, relaxed and had this very strong feeling that some kind of entity had been keeping me company. Now i am experimenting with very low doses on a daily basis, i stopped drinking coffee, i am smoking almost nothing! It just takes away the urge to smoke cigarettes and just carry on with the day normally but feel very connected with myself...
ok, im sorry for my english not my native language and maybe i wrote too much (my first post
) just really wanted to share my experience. thank you for all the sharing and insight! namasté
p.s. - Most important thing, i felt that more respect should be given to this being. I wanted to play but IT played with me.
It is a very powerful force and caution is advised.
Not for playing, truly for learning and i believe that only by developing a relationship with this spirit can a person acquire somekind of knowledge.
