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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

paliperidonevictim2005 said:
Hi guys I barely come here now as I am doing better music is sounding better and better about 60 percent back I can also get High asf with great euphoria and psychedelic effects from weed and hhc making me feel 70 percent back to normal and alleviating most symptoms sexual and emotional especially and it makes music sound fucking amazing like before I can feel attracted to women but sometimes it feels weak and unsatisfying tho however if im high I can feel very attracted to a girl and could fall in love with her and have a girlfriend I could also enjoy sex and masturbation when high and a little bit when sober but barely when sober, 9 months off I can also get horny and get hard from thoughts of girls or pictures now, weed makes me feel damn near like before now but I still have progress to make im not gonna lie im getting there tho guys, im praying 12-15 month mark marks 90-100 percent recovery🙏🙏 I can also feel my mind and intelligence begin to open up definitely, I also care about ppl now and try to help my friends out to feel how I want I still need at least a mild to moderate dose of weed
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How many shots u had again?
 
Very sad to see people struggling so much here ppl who are starting to see improvements I don’t take it yet but I might in the future I suggest dopamine and serotonin brain food with natural testosterone supplement and if you can feel weed use it I think all that will help alot
 
I truly believe most young ppl here who don’t take meds and haven’t taken them before other than being injected will fully recover or at least 90 percent probably at the 1-2 years off mark this shit lingers in your body for a while I still have akathisia mild but weed helps that but it’s probably because the shit is still lingering and hasn’t fully drained out my doctor told me it takes longer for some ppl to fully drain this shit out
 
Youwillrecover said:
I failed and got injected again after i attacked my toxic parents hahahahhaha. Fortunately they gave me just 2 ablify shots not invega
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My parents are kinda toxic too but I know how to ignore them now I can tolerate most of their bs easily it’s not too toxic imo but sometimes my dad can say some very fucked up shit that will put me over the edge I won’t attack him tho I pray he doesn’t say shit like that he claims he won’t but god knows if he’s telling the truth or not if he did I would just laugh and tell him he’s acting like a scumbag I wouldn’t attack him I know how to avoid those situations now tho
 
Also guys my personality is definitely coming back with the same interests as before I enjoy the same type of music I still enjoy old songs that I used to like I can also cry once in a while if I need to or feel overwhelmed like some girls rejecting me who I really liked before this shit and starting to have a crush on again made me feel unloved how I used to feel as a kid and sad so I needed to cry and I was able to and felt relieved and better and positive after crying also I have a very toxic scumbag friend who I would reach out to for help his only good advice was to take supplements other than that he kept calling me a “little bitch” telling me to toughen up telling me that I have emotions and I think I don’t but im wrong even tho a few months ago I didn’t have emotions barely and he unvalidated the fuck out of my problems making fun of my past and when I told him weed makes me feel better he gets pissed and calls me a junkie and selfish and tells me a whole bunch of bs I just wanted to tell him to shut the fuck up because he was a drug addict more than me he would take all sorts of hard drugs like cocaine pills etc opiates alcohol all that shit claims to be here for me but is just nothing more than a toxic waste of time who I need to avoid as much as possible im going to block him on all social media now also really pissed me off more than anything that once I started getting better and talking to girls this motherfucker texts me saying “how weird are the whores you fuck” calling women whores like a fucking scumbag pig which I DO NOT tolerate I respect women around here!!! And it’s funny because he’s the one who told me to talk to girls when I had no emotions and couldn’t a few months ago and gets mad when I do it now idk wtf is wrong with this man he’s just insecure about himself and takes it out on me and others😂 I know I need to remove him from my life for my own mental health and wellbeing however all he does is judge the fuck out of every decision I make as if he didn’t make worse decisions than me like doing hard drugs he’s an insecure close minded idiot who takes his frustrations out on others I will be removing him from my life today you guys do the same with your toxic friends!
 
Youwillrecover said:
I hit my mother 3 times with open fist for hospitalizing me last time even tho it wasnt needed she just wanted to control me and do a power move on me i hate that bitch. They plan to give me another ablify injection in 2 days and release me. Im shocked that i feel ok on it.
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You need to control your emotions mane and get emotionally stable and forget about the past before your life becomes a revolving cycle of fuck ups and injections avoid your parents as much as you can if it’s possible and if they cause you distress im very sad for you but you will recover from abilify after that idk if god will give you more chances tbh so change your ways after abilify wears off which should be quicker hopefully 3-6 months get a girlfriend so she can heal your trauma and her love can calm your spirit and prevent you from doing this dumb shit again!
 
I have brief moments where I feel like my old self then suddenly reality dawns on me and I feel like I’m in a prison being tortured. I have blood tests on the way will see how much of this poison is still in my system.

Has any one tried an antidepressant to combat the apathy caused by this poisonous shit?
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
You need to control your emotions mane and get emotionally stable and forget about the past before your life becomes a revolving cycle of fuck ups and injections avoid your parents as much as you can if it’s possible and if they cause you distress im very sad for you but you will recover from abilify after that idk if god will give you more chances tbh so change your ways after abilify wears off which should be quicker hopefully 3-6 months get a girlfriend so she can heal your trauma and her love can calm your spirit and prevent you from doing this dumb shit again!
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Love you brother appreciate it thank u ♥️🙏
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
You need to control your emotions mane and get emotionally stable and forget about the past before your life becomes a revolving cycle of fuck ups and injections avoid your parents as much as you can if it’s possible and if they cause you distress im very sad for you but you will recover from abilify after that idk if god will give you more chances tbh so change your ways after abilify wears off which should be quicker hopefully 3-6 months get a girlfriend so she can heal your trauma and her love can calm your spirit and prevent you from doing this dumb shit again!
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She is very cruel but i will behave this time. Im good tbh have no side effects from ablify shots which is suprising. But thank you for advice again ♥️🙏
 
Hey guys. I’m doing a tiny bit better, Can connect with music again and my baseline isn’t just pure suffering anymore. Definitely not happy or very emotional at all but at least not feeling completely disconnected anymore.

On another note, I listened to an old song that used to be like one of my absolute favourite songs to cry to and sing, and it happened to come on in the playlist I was listening to, and I barely recognised it. Couldn’t remember the lyrics, couldn’t connect with the emotion, and when I finally realised what song it was my stomach dropped. I feel sick, it was really disturbing. Has anyone else had an experience like this?
 
Maymay169 said:
Hey guys. I’m doing a tiny bit better, Can connect with music again and my baseline isn’t just pure suffering anymore. Definitely not happy or very emotional at all but at least not feeling completely disconnected anymore.

On another note, I listened to an old song that used to be like one of my absolute favourite songs to cry to and sing, and it happened to come on in the playlist I was listening to, and I barely recognised it. Couldn’t remember the lyrics, couldn’t connect with the emotion, and when I finally realised what song it was my stomach dropped. I feel sick, it was really disturbing. Has anyone else had an experience like this?
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How long u are off rexulti and invega
 
Maymay169 said:
Hey guys. I’m doing a tiny bit better, Can connect with music again and my baseline isn’t just pure suffering anymore. Definitely not happy or very emotional at all but at least not feeling completely disconnected anymore.

On another note, I listened to an old song that used to be like one of my absolute favourite songs to cry to and sing, and it happened to come on in the playlist I was listening to, and I barely recognised it. Couldn’t remember the lyrics, couldn’t connect with the emotion, and when I finally realised what song it was my stomach dropped. I feel sick, it was really disturbing. Has anyone else had an experience like this?
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And look imma be honest with you. What you decribing might be aswell depersonalization and derealization from trauma and stress u might have. No longer antipsychotics. Most of us been put on a shot for a reason. Thats why u feel nothing and blame it on aps
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
This. Exercise and routine are critical. Even if I'm tired beyond belief, if I exercise, I always feel good after and grateful towards myself for making the effort. Takes a lot of discipline to recover. Gotta have it. Looking forward to the day when life is a good and wholesome thing again.
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I train every day, every set is high intensity till failure, I train for few hours, and after that I run. My routine is flawless. However I'm the same before and after my training, others might relate but I still recommend doing it, it's certainly highly valuable for the body.
 
Youwillrecover said:
God put us on this path on injections for a reason.
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Destiny doesn't exist. If God really did put us on this path, then that God is trash and an unjust God, but there's no any evidence that it was God's will, so I can't blame God, I blame humanity as this is a product of human's endless stupidity.
 
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